i had a GOOD DAY!!

i had a GOOD DAY!!

may 16, 2025

WOW!! finally got my therapy done. she cancelled last week cuz she was sick... _{she was coughing during this session a lot tho... poor girl hope she gets better...} BUT THIS WEEKS THERAPY WAS GREAT! i got to talk about leaving a place that was causing me a lot of trouble, she helped me with understanding it and whatnot. i'm not sure if i want to talk to them or not, and if i do CERTAINLY not yet, i need more time to heal, but. still awesome

in OTHER news. i got a doctors appointment scheduled. so, Hope to god, they figure out whats wrong with meee! i presume i have fibromyalgia considering i fit all of the symptoms perfectly. i'm not really sure how i'll feel if i DONT have it... or if i DO have it. i have no idea.

cuz like... the idea of just not having any disability this whole time and i'm just like. deficient in some random vitamin is a little scary! like, the idea that all my physical problems could just be fixed with a diet adjustment or a pill kinda freaks me out. obviously i'd PREFER to not be disabled, but i kinda have this weird.. complex... idk. its probably some ocd bullshit. and either way, i still AM disabled. mentally, but disabled.

i didnt expect her to accept an appointment so soon... its on tuesday... isnt that crazy? my mom always told me that doctors were impossible to get to. i keep learning over and over that she just lies to me when she's upset. wonder why i have bpd lol

i'm feeling: Uncharachtaristically cheery!